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[thewolfinside]

Jason stares down at his journal, shaking his head over the dream entry he wrote. When he had talked to Betsy about it today, she told him to start writing them down.

He failed to see what hot Wild West sex had to do with post traumatic stress whatever, but he did as she said anyway.

Then again, Betsy was a perv, so she was probably getting off on it. It's no wonder they had been friends in high school.

He tosses the journal on the table, absently noting that he's going to need a new one soon and takes a drink of soda. The house is quiet, Ella asleep, Scud in the garage, Gabe with him or prowling around the lake and Jase and Zane having disappeared somewhere. He idly wondered if they were fucking, but couldn't see Jase doing that to Em.

Unless she told him to...

He smirks and leans back in his chair, watching the darkness outside.

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[leela1.livejournal.com]

The door to Zane's room opens, and Leela walks into the kitchen, pale and sweating. She sees him, but goes and opens the fridge, retrieving a carton of orange juice. She takes a gulp out of the carton, then another one.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Looks up when Leela walks in and nods.

"Nightmares?"

[leela1.livejournal.com]

She nods, takes another gulp. Shutting the fridge, taking the carton with her, she walks over, sits at the table staring at her hands.

"I went to Trans, talked to Mr. Tepes yesterday. He told me about my past" She looks up at him, her eyes haunted. "And he told me more about Raina."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"So, what did he tell you?"

[leela1.livejournal.com]

"She beat me, she".. she swallows "taught me to hold my tongue, collared me." she looks over at him. "She broke me, she crushed my spirit."

"And she caged me like an animal, didn't she?"

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Stares at her for a bit, then looks away.

"You accepted the collar, and until she put it on you, you were free to leave. You thought she was the lesser evil. And yes, she beat you, but not as bad as she could have, no where near as bad as Cel did. She had amazing restraint with you. Of course, she took her anger out on the rest of us.

And yes, she taught you how to hold your tongue, had others give you lessons in etiquette. And yes, she crushed your spirit.

But the cage, that came at the end when she decided to sell you. You were in there, maybe a week."

[leela1.livejournal.com]

"Mr. Tepes didn't tell me about the cage, Jason. I dreamed that part tonight." She takes a another gulp, juggles the carton in her hand."

"Two questions for you Jason. One - what do you mean, took her anger out on you guys; and two - why the fuck do I have to dream of the bad stuff to remember? Why can't I dream the good stuff? Ok, that's actually three questions, sorry."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"Like I said, she had restraint with you. She'd knock you around a bit and then send you to your room.

Then she'd let loose on whoever was close by. One of your guards, another member of the pack, me..."

Shrugs, still staring out the window.

"I don't know, maybe it's part of the remembering process. You remember the good stuff during the day, and the bad stuff at night."

[leela1.livejournal.com]

"Yea, well I'm sick of waking up in a cold sweat, and screaming in the back of my mind. First strangling, then dying, now.. yea."

"Jason, they'll be starting on my house next week. I'll be out of here, in three weeks tops". She makes little circles on the table with a fingertip.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

He looks over at her, a bit surprised.

"So soon? Damn, you know we're going to miss you, right? Although I bet Tom will be happy to have his own room again instead of sharing with Ella."

[leela1.livejournal.com]

She continues to draw on the table, not looking up. "It's time, Jason. Past due, really. I gotta go."

"I need my space." she looks at him. "I need my own room. Not one that I share with someone that... that I don't even really get along with."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Nods, leaning back in his chair again.

"We like the tinier spaces, you like the wide open ones."

Suddenly grins, winking.

"The french palace will rise again?"

[leela1.livejournal.com]

"Let me tell you something Jason. Even the smallest hole can seem huge when you sleep in it alone." She shakes her head. "Not gonna do this anymore. I'm lonely Jason. I went from having what, three - four lovers; to having none? And being here just amplifies the problems between Zane and I. Time for me to go."

"And yes, Chateau de Reve's will be rebuilt. And with the money I'm paying, it better be done soon."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"You do what makes you happy."

Nodding, looking back towards the window.

"And you were happiest in your house."

[leela1.livejournal.com]

"Well, hopefully I'll be happy thee again." She nods firmly, looks out the window to the night.

"Not gonna to be able to sleep for a while, think I'll go for a swim. I'll walk around, maybe watch the sun rise from up top one of those mountains. I'll talk to you later, Jason." She gets up, tosses the empty carton into the garbage.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"Later Leela."

[leela1.livejournal.com]

Waves, walks out the door.