Jason stands in the middle of his room, looking at his closet, very upset. "What was I thinking to wear this crap? And this room. I need a manservant."
Not a word. Not a single sound. Just those glaring, bright, golden eyes. Following her lips, flickering to her eyes. Watching her with all of the coldness that lived within his soul. The eyes of a predator trying to decide whether to eat her or toy with her.
But as she moves to pass, his arm shoots out, blocking the way.
"One thing, Dollface. You can't have it both ways. You can't have that thrill, that lust, that need for a man that can kill you and have him acceptin his position as a true Alpha, as a leader and as a loving beast. See, it doesn't work that way, Doll."
Lifting his arm, clearing her way.
"I can't be everything to everyone. Not even to myself."
"Then be true to yourself and what you were meant to be. And you were meant for better things than you've given yourself - or given yourself credit for."
"Never once said you couldn't lean on the people around you - that is what family is for, right? Even leaders need people around them, people who care, who will be there to hold, to care, to help- and even people who will tell the truth as they see it, whether the leader likes it or not."
"I can handle me, I'm not worried. But I'am worried about Jason, about Lil, and Nate. And I'm very worried about you. Very much so."
"And you don't think I'm not? I'm watching Jason being eaten away by that fucking shit in his head, in his soul. And I don't know how to help him. I have a damn good idea but.. But he's stronger than the one I knew. And as such, I don't know how much his willpower versus my efforts will go."
Shaking his head, hands clenching until tight balls until blood seeps through his fingers.
"Don't worry about me, Doll. No point. I'll sink or swim. There is no other choice. Because another alpha comes through here and wants to take Lil? Or Jason? Hell, maybe Nate, I don't know this Nate well enough to know how Alpha is he. But he tries? I'll either kill or be killed. How it goes. My throat or his."
"But at least you are willing to try. That's a fuck of a lot better than the self destructive verbal beating that I've listened to you say time and time again."
She leans in close, looking up at him, midnight blue eyes full of fire "And I will continue to worry about you until I decide you no longer need me worrying about you. And that will not be for a long time. Get used to it, now."
"I don't know why you'd go through it, Dollface. That's all. Nothing worse than a broken shifter than a broken alpha. And I just don't know how fractured I am."
Leaning closer, kissing her nose.
"I'm going in to holdcheck on my patient. See how he's doing. Joining us or going home?"
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Date: 19 Jun 2005 07:28 (UTC)But as she moves to pass, his arm shoots out, blocking the way.
"One thing, Dollface. You can't have it both ways. You can't have that thrill, that lust, that need for a man that can kill you and have him acceptin his position as a true Alpha, as a leader and as a loving beast. See, it doesn't work that way, Doll."
Lifting his arm, clearing her way.
"I can't be everything to everyone. Not even to myself."
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Date: 19 Jun 2005 07:38 (UTC)"Never once said you couldn't lean on the people around you - that is what family is for, right? Even leaders need people around them, people who care, who will be there to hold, to care, to help- and even people who will tell the truth as they see it, whether the leader likes it or not."
"I can handle me, I'm not worried. But I'am worried about Jason, about Lil, and Nate. And I'm very worried about you. Very much so."
"So stand the fuck back up and be what you are"
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Date: 19 Jun 2005 07:46 (UTC)Shaking his head, hands clenching until tight balls until blood seeps through his fingers.
"Don't worry about me, Doll. No point. I'll sink or swim. There is no other choice. Because another alpha comes through here and wants to take Lil? Or Jason? Hell, maybe Nate, I don't know this Nate well enough to know how Alpha is he. But he tries? I'll either kill or be killed. How it goes. My throat or his."
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Date: 19 Jun 2005 07:55 (UTC)She leans in close, looking up at him, midnight blue eyes full of fire "And I will continue to worry about you until I decide you no longer need me worrying about you. And that will not be for a long time. Get used to it, now."
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Date: 19 Jun 2005 07:59 (UTC)"I don't know why you'd go through it, Dollface. That's all. Nothing worse than a broken shifter than a broken alpha. And I just don't know how fractured I am."
Leaning closer, kissing her nose.
"I'm going in to
holdcheck on my patient. See how he's doing. Joining us or going home?"no subject
Date: 19 Jun 2005 08:03 (UTC)