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thewolfinsideHe walks around the edge of the lake until he's out of sight of the cabin. Drops down beside a tree, pulling his legs up and burying his head in his knees. He's shaking, wanting so badly to scream and rage and cry, but can't. He rocks back and forth, whimpering.
Not fair. It's not fair. Supposed to be my turn, my time. Fuck, it hurts, want it to go away, want it to stop.
Not fair. It's not fair. Supposed to be my turn, my time. Fuck, it hurts, want it to go away, want it to stop.
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:00 (UTC)And then seeing it a moment before he heard soft sounds. Pausing, hesitant. Stooping down, giving Jason space.
"So... Uhmmm... I need yer advice. I need to make it up to my boyfriend that I'm utterly fuckin his life.. Any idea what I could do for him?"
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:05 (UTC)"...why?"
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:09 (UTC)"Why what? Why make it up to him? Cause he's fuckin amazing. Dude puts up with my shit, helps me get past my mistakes and actually, for whatever reason? Sees good in this old asshole. And he deserves better than what he's got but I ain't gonna complain that he loves me. Never been so damn lucky in my life.'
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:13 (UTC)"Why me? Why us? What the fuck did we do that was so bad?"
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:19 (UTC)Dropping down to sit on his ass, legs crossed before him.
"Maybe god hates queers. I don't know. What I do know? I love you too fuckin much to let anything make me give up. I ain't quittin, kid and neither are you. Leela shifts? So be it. We train her, she's already pard. Same with Lee."
Silent a moment, staring directly at Jason.
"She's carryin my child? Well... never thought about it much but... My kid, I'll be there for her and the kid. And we'll be parents. You and me and her. Cause it's ours. Because you are my life. My love. And I don't give a fuck what tried to get in the way... that ain't fuckin gonna change."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:37 (UTC)"I'm tired, tired of being angy and scare and hurting."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:40 (UTC)"I can't blame ya, pup. So.. tell me. What's it gonna take to fix that? What do you need, Jason?"
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:47 (UTC)no subject
Date: 8 Jul 2005 02:50 (UTC)"And what do you need from me? I... I fear that's the... Get the fuck out, Gabe you and... So.. please, tell me whatcha mean?"
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:00 (UTC)"Help me, I can't... fuck. Gabriel, it hurts and I don't know what to do."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:02 (UTC)"Let it out, baby. Just... let it go. Hurt me. Hit me. Cry. Rant. Whatever it is you need, pup. Do it."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:22 (UTC)Rocking him tenderly, arms tight about Jason. Pain in his eyes, but nothing but comfort.
"Just... get rid of it, baby."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:29 (UTC)He finally pulls away long enough to take off his shirt, wiping his face off with a harsh laugh. "I feel like a stupid kid."
Drops the shirt on the grass and leans against Gabriel, closing his eyes.
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:34 (UTC)Be there for him.
Barely releasing his arms to let him clean up, reaching out to tuck a strand of hair back behind Jason's ear.
"You aren't.. you are just a great guy dealin with a lot of shit."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:43 (UTC)"I guess the trip is off until we find out."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:46 (UTC)"How long do you wish to be away? We have over a week until the full moon. Until then... Nothing we can do by sitting here, worrying."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:50 (UTC)"As long as we can."
Pulls Gabriel into another kiss.
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 03:58 (UTC)Nestles against Jason.
"I love the pard but I need time with you. Just you."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 04:10 (UTC)"Whenever."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 04:11 (UTC)"We could just stay here and never go back."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 04:28 (UTC)"Promise?"
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 04:35 (UTC)Hugging tight.
"Sooner or later? We have to go back. Right now? No, we don't have to at all."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 04:44 (UTC)"I want to stop thinking, now."
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Date: 8 Jul 2005 04:55 (UTC)Smirking, pushing Jason back slowly, crawling up over him.
"And yeah, I know. Cheesy once more. Bite me."
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