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thewolfinside"You didn't have to be a fucking dick."
Thump.
"Well then next time, let me die because you definately didn't help. Hell, you probably made it worse saying the shit you did."
Thump.
"FUCK YOU. At least I'm not hiding things from Gabe."
Thump.
"That wasn't what I meant and you know it."
Thump-thump.
"Yeah, whatever. And one of us turned into a fucking dick, and it wasn't me."
Jason shuts off the phone and throws it, watching it skip across the water before finally sinking in the lake. He's hidden himself away on a tiny dock on the far side of the lake. He's been avoiding the others, mostly Gabriel, all day. He can't face his mate after what he did last night, after fucking up the way he did. He can't handle Gabe being mad at him right now, and is getting by on the assumption that Gabe won't leave without saying goodbye, and if he can't find Jason, then he can't say goodbye.
At least that's what he's hoping.
Thump.
"Well then next time, let me die because you definately didn't help. Hell, you probably made it worse saying the shit you did."
Thump.
"FUCK YOU. At least I'm not hiding things from Gabe."
Thump.
"That wasn't what I meant and you know it."
Thump-thump.
"Yeah, whatever. And one of us turned into a fucking dick, and it wasn't me."
Jason shuts off the phone and throws it, watching it skip across the water before finally sinking in the lake. He's hidden himself away on a tiny dock on the far side of the lake. He's been avoiding the others, mostly Gabriel, all day. He can't face his mate after what he did last night, after fucking up the way he did. He can't handle Gabe being mad at him right now, and is getting by on the assumption that Gabe won't leave without saying goodbye, and if he can't find Jason, then he can't say goodbye.
At least that's what he's hoping.
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Date: 11 Aug 2005 23:40 (UTC)Tears coursing down his face, shaking so bad he thought he would collapse.
"BUt.. Nate was right. Is right. I'm not strong enough. I'm not what you all need.'
Whimpering, yanking Jason closer.
"Love you. Love you. God, can't be without you. Fuck. Fuckfuckfuck. Wish I'd ripped his throat out. Done anything but feel so fucking useless when he touched you like that.'
Snarling even as he cries, torn between anger and self loathing.
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Date: 11 Aug 2005 23:59 (UTC)Trying so hard to believe this, hating his best friend right now.
"I'm sorry, sorry."
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Date: 12 Aug 2005 00:13 (UTC)"Don't. Don't apologize for him, pup. Just don't do it.'
Shaking his head, lifting his lips, kissing Jason over and over.
"I know he's right. I do. I'm trying. It's all I can do, Jason. Just... dont' know how to be a good Alpha. Only know pain. And force. Fuck. I almost killed you. Fuck."
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Date: 12 Aug 2005 00:22 (UTC)"It was my fault. I shouldn't have pushed."