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[thewolfinside]

Jason tucks Ella in beside him as she falls asleep, drawing on the front of his journal. The simple red book now looks like a brick wall covered in graffitti, which has block letters reading "Read if you wish" on the front. Sometimes it's easier to throw the book at someone than verbally explain what's going on in his head.



Em's home. Gorgeous called this morning, said she was sending her home. Got to talk with my Emma for a bit, haven't done that in a while. Miss her.

Introduced Ray to Scud, that was fun. Was joking around with Scud and upset Gabe, didn't mean too, because it was just a joke, but it was enough to set me off. I hate being like that, wanting to just go find a dark corner and curl into a ball. Then he went with me when I walked it off. Yeah, that was enjoyable. I walked along kicking things, he followed. All I wanted to do was to go for a walk by myself, to figure out the thoughts and put them in an order that made sense to me, to anyone.

It's hard to think when he's around, 'cause I worry about being a burden to him. He doesn't need this shit, not after figuring himself out. And yes, he says I'm not, my heart knows this, but it doesn't always process in my head.

Was suppossed to go to Reno's tonight, didn't. I'll need to call and apologize, something. Don't know what happened, one second I was bouncy and having fun. Next thing, I wanted to go crawl in bed, pull the covers over me and forget the world existed. Can't remember what I was thinking of either, so much shit was running through my head.

Appointment with Betsy tonight, need to get on the meds. This is driving the others more than a little insane, they probably hate me right now. Can't be easy taking turns looking out for the crazy one. Didn't even get to do more than wave hi to Em before the boys were dragging her off. Ray's bouncing around, alternating between annoying Gabe and following Scud around. Sin is a freaking shadow. If she's not upstairs doing schoolwork (I think she's the only one who is actually doing it. Haven't been checking on the others, hope Gabe is.), then she's upstairs reading or drawing while listening to the headphones. Her own form of therapy I guess.

Mood: Shitty
Day: Started good, but sucks now




Tosses the journal on the coffee table and shifts Ella, stretching out on the couch and laying the sleeping child on his chest. Softly kisses the top of her head and closes his eyes, trying to get a nap in before someone came home and woke her up.

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[rayharper.livejournal.com]

Ray blinks up. "I'm not Jason. He's Jason."

Said tartly.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Hugs Nathaniel tighter, sticking his tongue out at Ray.

"He's a mutant. That's his mutation. He sneezes and turns into a five year old for a period of time. We're hoping that learning to control the beast will help him in controlling his mutant power."

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

"You wish... With him..."

Turning, looking at Jason as he whimpers. "I don't know if I can bite a child, Jason."

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

"I can turn back!" Ray looks a little desperate, sliding off the couch to go tug Nathaniel's pant leg. "Please? Scud is theirs and Zane scares me!"

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Hugs Nathaniel, smiling at him.

"If you can't, we wait until he changes back. We don't do anything you don't want to do, kitten. Promise."

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

Looks down at this kid, choosing a life he once regretted. "Zane is a brat, and you should know that. But his life has sucked. Be good to him.' Sighing. "I would prefer adult but I can do it like this."

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

Pausing in his insistant tugging, Ray cranes his head back to get a good view. "I can wait. I dun' wanna but I can. If I sit on my hands. And run in little circles all week!"

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Laughs at Ray and tugs Nathaniel down to the couch.

"If you want to wait, I have to bail for about an hour, maybe he'll turn back then."

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

"No. I want you here and likely Gabriel
won't come out. I'll be back.'

Heads back out, leaving the door open.

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

"....He's running away in terror, isn't he?" Ray's expression is half laughter, half incredulistic.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Sighs softly, shaking his head.

"No, he's not. Not really. There's a lot of issues there you don't know about yet. He's dealt with a lot of Mincers in his life."

He looks at Ray, smiling a bit.

"I'm going to my appointment, you go play nice with Nathaniel, if he's still here. Tell him about what happened at Arkham, it'll help him understand why we're allowing this."

Stands and hits a button on his watch, then heads for the portal. "Back in an hour."

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

Ray waves slightly before settlingdown on the couch, sitting on his hands.

"...What am I telling him again?" Blinking slightly, as Jason is gone.

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

Changing before another was not something Nathaniel could do. Even Lee would likely never see it. But the small leopard that padded in paused, sniffing the air, canting his head at the boy.

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

Shifting off his hands, Ray holds one out. "Hi. Um. Yeah. Hi."

He shifts again. "What're we doing now? Oh. Jason said I should talk about Mincer. He tried to eat me. And licked me and stuff."

A pause. "Um. Stuff. Yeah." He clamps his free hand over his mouth so the next bit is muffled. "I'm not babbling. See?"

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

Padding closer, the leopard snuffles along Ray's hand and wrist before plopping down beside him. Eyes golden,bright and he headbutts the boy lightly to continue.

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

"Oh. Storytime, huh?" Ray slides down to sit beside Nathaniel and thinks. "So, alright. here's the thing. I killed this guy, see? And they put me in a loony bin.

"But the loony bin was filled with, well, um, loonies -- not those coins, real loonies -- and they had this thing for kids and I'm a kid either way you look at it so this one guy. Mincer. He's crazier than most. He liked to corner me and pin me down and lick me and nibble and tell me how he was gonna cook me and I was freaked but the guards tried and couldn't do anything because, I mean, there aren't many and at night there are even less because it's night so he'd --"

Ray takes a deep breath. "Hi, I'm Ray."

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

As he speaks, the growl begins to rumble through Nathaniel. Hatred, anger, rage. His own inability to ever protect himself. Snarling, lip curling as he does something perhaps no one has ever heard.

He roars.

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

Giving a little shriek, Ray slides back. "Nice kitty!"

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

Purring suddenly, Nathaniel dropped his head to Ray's side, crouching down. Fearful, scared. Submissive.

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

"Guh. Don't ...do that? Nice kitty?" Ray pats the air in front of Nathaniel, wincing a bit. "No more roaring, right? I just... keep silent and you don't roar and then the biting happens and we are done, you cn change back, we can have a decent conversation over tea and crumpets and forget this whole conversationever happened.

"And we don't tell Gabe that anything other than licking or nibbling occured. Deal?"

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

Not moving. Trembling. Golden eyes closing as he did nothing more than lay there.

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

"Nod once for 'no telling Gabe' and twice fer 'fuck off and die, little boy'." Ray seems to have calmed down and continues to pat the air almost absently.

[sweet-masochism.livejournal.com]

One small nod of his furred head. Then raising slightly, his tonge darting over Ray's arm.

[rayharper.livejournal.com]

The boy giggles. "Tickles."

He scoots in. "You know, yer pretty cool, what with the no telling Gabe and the no-longer scaring me thing."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Jason sneaks in slowly, and crouches behind Ray.

"BOO!"