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thewolfinsideHe'd packed a small bag, just a change of clothes and his shaving bag, and left it sitting on the couch while he went looking for Gabe. He couldn't put it off any longer, not after last night, and the girls had already agreed to stay over.
Lil had even threatened to call Jasia. Jason wasn't sure why that thought worried him. Why should he be worried about Lil, Carrie and Jasia locked in a room with Gabe all night?
Rethinking that question, Jason makes a note to check the insurance policy before leaving for the night.
Lil had even threatened to call Jasia. Jason wasn't sure why that thought worried him. Why should he be worried about Lil, Carrie and Jasia locked in a room with Gabe all night?
Rethinking that question, Jason makes a note to check the insurance policy before leaving for the night.
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 21:26 (UTC)Gabe wasn't sure if he wouldn't just fucking kill him and be done with it. Outright challenges to his control was one thing but this shit, and risking Ella, as a damn nother thing.
Laying out on the bed, letting what remained of the day's sun wash over him. Healing the best way he could in the form he yearned for ever now.
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 21:41 (UTC)So, he could be strong for a little bit longer and sit here on the edge of the bed. He reaches for Gabe's hand and squeezes, smiling a bit.
"Hey, I need to go out for the night, I'll be back in the morning. The girls said they're coming over."
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 21:48 (UTC)But that could be all he ever allowed himself because anything more and he tore everything apart.
"I don't need babysitters, Jason. Seriously. I'll be fine, you go do what you have to.' Like that. Bright smiles, squeeze Jason's hand. And know that because he had failed, Jason needed something other than him. He could live with that, long as Jason was well.
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 22:12 (UTC)"I was going to go visit Emma, but it can wait."
It could. He would make it wait, he'd figure out some way to do it.
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 22:16 (UTC)Shrugging, reaching over to brush back a lock of Jason's hair. "You do what you have to for you, Jason. Need you guys happy and strong."
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 22:24 (UTC)"I'll be fine." He tries to sound convincing, but he doesn't quite get there. "You need me here."
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 22:30 (UTC)"Pup, I'm used to having to be strong no matter what. I was stupid and let it show I wasn't. I'm better now."
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 22:48 (UTC)"You shouldn't have to be strong no matter what. You should be able to let go and show that things hurt, that you're hurting. Everyone else is allowed, so are you." Ducking his head, he can't look at Gabe, his voice breaking as he speaks. "I'm sorry I couldn't be strong enough. I'm sorry."
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 22:50 (UTC)Shifting, running his hand along Jason's back.
"It's not your job to care for me, Jason. Not in that way. You may be my mate but, in the end, I'm the alpha and it's my job."
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 23:03 (UTC)He looks up at Gabe, obviously fighting back tears. "If I can't do that, what good am I?"
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Date: 7 Apr 2006 23:13 (UTC)"But if you're breaking down trying to deal with it, I have two choices. Buck up so you can come to me or accept that I'm failing you as both mate and Alpha."
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Date: 8 Apr 2006 00:19 (UTC)"I'm breaking down because shit has happened and I haven't dealt with it. You're not failing me, not before and not now."
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Date: 8 Apr 2006 01:15 (UTC)His voice is quiet and muffled, his body trembling. "I should be able to deal with stuff like this without having to fall apart."
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Date: 8 Apr 2006 01:41 (UTC)"What we should and what we can are not always the same, Jason. I've learned to do what I must. It's what I've always done, pup. Does no good for me to let it bother me if I lose you over it."
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Date: 8 Apr 2006 01:51 (UTC)"I worry that in the end, we're not going to be us anymore."
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Date: 8 Apr 2006 02:42 (UTC)"Scared. I was so fucking scared I wouldn't find you."
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Date: 8 Apr 2006 03:05 (UTC)"Stop apologizing, please?" His voice is rough, still a bit strained. He nuzzles at Gabe's shoulder, sighing softly. "It wasn't your fault."
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