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[thewolfinside]

Jason tucks Ella in beside him as she falls asleep, drawing on the front of his journal. The simple red book now looks like a brick wall covered in graffitti, which has block letters reading "Read if you wish" on the front. Sometimes it's easier to throw the book at someone than verbally explain what's going on in his head.



Em's home. Gorgeous called this morning, said she was sending her home. Got to talk with my Emma for a bit, haven't done that in a while. Miss her.

Introduced Ray to Scud, that was fun. Was joking around with Scud and upset Gabe, didn't mean too, because it was just a joke, but it was enough to set me off. I hate being like that, wanting to just go find a dark corner and curl into a ball. Then he went with me when I walked it off. Yeah, that was enjoyable. I walked along kicking things, he followed. All I wanted to do was to go for a walk by myself, to figure out the thoughts and put them in an order that made sense to me, to anyone.

It's hard to think when he's around, 'cause I worry about being a burden to him. He doesn't need this shit, not after figuring himself out. And yes, he says I'm not, my heart knows this, but it doesn't always process in my head.

Was suppossed to go to Reno's tonight, didn't. I'll need to call and apologize, something. Don't know what happened, one second I was bouncy and having fun. Next thing, I wanted to go crawl in bed, pull the covers over me and forget the world existed. Can't remember what I was thinking of either, so much shit was running through my head.

Appointment with Betsy tonight, need to get on the meds. This is driving the others more than a little insane, they probably hate me right now. Can't be easy taking turns looking out for the crazy one. Didn't even get to do more than wave hi to Em before the boys were dragging her off. Ray's bouncing around, alternating between annoying Gabe and following Scud around. Sin is a freaking shadow. If she's not upstairs doing schoolwork (I think she's the only one who is actually doing it. Haven't been checking on the others, hope Gabe is.), then she's upstairs reading or drawing while listening to the headphones. Her own form of therapy I guess.

Mood: Shitty
Day: Started good, but sucks now




Tosses the journal on the coffee table and shifts Ella, stretching out on the couch and laying the sleeping child on his chest. Softly kisses the top of her head and closes his eyes, trying to get a nap in before someone came home and woke her up.

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[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

Giggles, rolling over and laying his head on Jason's stomach.

"What? Apparently we have gods watching us all the time."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Rolls his eyes, running his fingers through Gabe's hair. "It's one thing to know they're watching, it's another for them to SHOW UP."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

"Well, Wafflegod is kinda cute, you know. And according to the talk last night? I'm one of the few that hasn't done him... never know. Might be nice."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Gnaws on his lip, looking at Gabe. "No screwing God."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

"No screwing anyone you say no to." Kisses him tenderly.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"I wouldn't even say no, except it's Sam, and he's God and..." Shakes his head, ducking his head. "and there's that whole perfect thing."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

"Oh baby.' Pulls Jason close, nuzzling at his cheek , his jaw, rubbing his own cheek against his mate, scent marking him as a cat might. "No one is more perfect for me than you."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"Thank you. Cheesy, but I love it."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

"All yer own damn fault. You made me this way, pup."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Smiles and ducks his head. "Funny, I don't feel guilty about that."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

"Good." Rolling over onto his back, pulling Jason with him, dragging his mate to lie atop him.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"Love you." Rests his head on Gabe's chest, closing his eyes. "Where is everyone?"

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

Cradling his mate to him, nuzzling at the top of his head.

"Don't know. Bet the trio is out being kids. Sin? Damned if I know with her. Leela's gone home."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Nods slowly.

"Scud and Ray?"

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

He snorts before he can think about it.

"Playing, I would suppose.' Turning his head, looking across the room.

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Stretches up, making Gabriel look at him.

"Love you, so does he."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

Dark eyes slowly turning to his mate, forcing a smile. "I know you do, pup. And I love you with all my heart."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Sighs and kisses Gabe. "So. Does. He."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

Traces Jason's spine with his fingerstips.

"Perhaps he does. I know he cares. And he stays. That's enough for me."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

Growls softly.

"Mmm, the guy is practically a hermit, yet he comes out whenever you ask. He plays with you when he won't play with hardly anyone else. If that isn't damn close to love, I don't know what is."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

Strokes Jason's hair.

"I don't assume a damn thing with him, pup. Can't get hurt that way."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

"I don't think he would hurt you that way."

Sits up, looking at Gabe.

"So, now we have the discussion. Ray wants to be a kitty."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

His shock shows on his face.

"Ray? When? Did he ask this at five? Come on. At that age of course it seems cool."

[thewolf-inside.livejournal.com]

He shakes head, smirking. "He's been asking at both ages."

[lion-passant.livejournal.com]

Gabe sighs. "He's young. And mutant. What if he ends up like Lee?"